Quoting: izanami
im not sure if im even making sense but id appreciate some good advice . im scared that if i tell him he will have to "let me down gently" and id not be able to look him in the eye again cos that is soo embarrassing but please some friendly advice :)
You make perfect sense, I've exactly the same emotions around someone I'm attracted to. Its really annoying isn't it, you can be fine around most people but then you meet someone you like and you go into your shell and you act like a different person.
A couple of years back I fell for a girl who works in the gym I go to. I was crazy about her but being too shy, instead of approaching her I sent her a card telling her how much I liked her only later to find out she had a long term boyfriend. Very embarassing every time I meet her and like you say I find it very difficult to look her in the eye ever since. If the same thing happens to you,(hopefully it will not, it could work out great) my advice would be to use humour to diffuse the situation. Where I went wrong was to treat the whole episode very seriously when in reality I didn't do her any harm, it's not like I drove over her pet cat or anything. If I had the opportunity again, I would have made light of the whole situation, used some self depreciating line of humour which would have broken the ice and made it a bit easier to be around the person in the future. Not sure how much sense I'm making here, finding it hard to translate information from brain to keyboard!