Hello everybody,
I'm a Spanish girl who met last summer a sweet(at that time I thought so) Polish guy in Galway( Ireland). We had sex, and when I came back to Spain, we kept in touch, through sms, e-mail, phone, messenger... and decided to meet again. Both of us were completely free at that time, although he confessed me this same year his polish girlfriend left him, but he promised he wasn't in love with her anymore and never would be with her again. At last, we spent four days together in Spain, and we were having sex almost all the time(I'm too passionate). The same day he came back to Ireland, he phoned me and told me he wanted to meet me again and asked me to be good and some other nice things. But that same night, his attitude changed, since his ex, who also lives in Ireland, called him and asked him to be with her again. He said he felt too many doubts, but at last he realized he wanted to be with her again(I've known it last week). The problem is that I'm pregnant and I told him last week, but he seems not to care about it. He sent me a sms saying me to call him if I needed to. I told him in an e-mail I wanted him to be happy, specially now that he's with his girlfriend again, and that I didn't want to cause him any trouble(I'm so stupid...), in spite that I'll have to face alone this difficult situation. In the last week, I haven't known anything else about him, he doesn't care about it. I feel destroyed, he has used me, when he wanted to be with me he was almost everyday in contact and he always had sweet words and kisses for me. And now that he has made me so much harm, he just forgets about me, even he doesn't care about my feelings or about what I'm going to do. He must be so happy now with his girlfriend, and I'm here alone, pregnant, so confused, asking God or whomever else not to wake up again in the morning, because this situation is so difficult to face. Moreover, I cannot forget him, I remember the moments we were together all the time. I thought Polish guys were loyal and responsible of their acts, but he must be the exception.
I needed to tell somebody what's happening to me, nobody else knows about it, if my friends knew it they would hate him, and I don't want anybody to hate him(I must be really stupid). I just needed some relief summing up my story, the problem is that I still don't know what to do. I'm terrified, and scared of myself because of the deep anguish I'm feeling and the stupid ideas that assault my mind.
Caluski i usciski.
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