Quoting: plzreplyme
she couldnt take one minute without me!
Quoting: plzreplyme
she used to smile, and ask me to come soon
plzreplyme, I had hesitated to respond, reason is, what can someone say
when the situation turns?
What I can respond to, maybe a thought, that perhaps your absence made
her reflect more on what she wanted, truely wanted out of life.
in every community, there is people who take on the responsiblity to educate
their religion, be it catholic , or christan etc. Perhaps she felt she needed to
do more in her life that would make her closer, be it becoming a nun, or just
working towards something spiritual that helps ease other worries/pains she
may have went through growing up.
you mentioned she was only living with her mother. so her parents are divorced
and possibly this has had huge impact on her for some time and she may have
had other things happen which made her not believe so much in god, so by
you coming into her life, she might have felt that she didnt want to lose you the
same way as she had lost her father, maybe the only way to keep you from
leaving her altogether (divorce) in the future as she might have forseen some
barriers which could hold you back, she decided this was her best option, as
she would still be able to love you, just not physically?
maybe she had such fears, because things had been so bad before, divorce
is very hard for all involved, some more so then others.
You helped her find something, something more then maybe she ever imagined
and maybe it was meant to be this way. we never know why things happen
sometimes we even question ourselfs. What was I thinking? the same holds
for everything, why? we may never know. Maybe you should still talk to her
and find peace somehow. Theres really no explaniations that can be given to
ease your pain. maybe some shoulders to lean on.
hope you find some peace.
Patrycja
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